So I’m not sure how much longer I can stay here at Singa Elementary School and in Korea, the ridiculous that is KYY and the defense of her and her behavior. It floors me how much she’s allowed to get away with in Korean Korean culture.
Here are some of the highlight defenses of KYY:
- She’s Korean and doesn’t speak English.
- She’s Korean and I’m a banana. So I’m not a real person.
- She’s from a small city (Ullsan) that’s not cultured or civilized – which is bogus because I’m from Song-tan (a farming village in Kyunggi-do) and one of my other co-teachers is from a really small town in the central part of Korea and Ullsan is one of the richer and nicer cities outside of Seoul and Busan.
- She’s always smiling and polite to people of position and power in the school.
- I’m not being a good Catholic to her. So how can I say that I’m Catholic???
- She’s trying and it’s hard to be around non-Koreans for her.
- She’s Korean and I’m not-really-Korean, so it’s all good.
And now the new principal has said that my job as the NSET is to support the Korean teacher, she’s the main teacher and what she wants to do is what I should help her with. When I asked the English supervisor does that mean that I should throw out everything that I’ve worked on and just play the CD-ROM the entire 40 minutes of class and have the students only listen and repeat, she only would say, “help and support KYY.”
In addition to swallowing my tongue and my opinions, forcing myself into a mold that I really don’t fit in, and having to keep things secret*, I feel like I have to live a double life just to kinda get by. And now I have to let KYY spit on me and follow her lead.
I know that I can stick it out for the rest of the semester and I was wanting to resign for at least another semester (as long as KYY wasn’t here next semester). But now I’m not too sure and I’m not too sure if changing schools at the end of my contract is necessarily the answer either.